Starry, Starry Night

Starry, starry night. Paint your palette blue and grey. Look out on a summer's day with eyes that know the darkness in my soul.

(This is the opening lines to a song. Does anyone know the name of the song and the artist? No cheating! Just off the top of your head...make a guess.)

I walked outside at 11:00pm DST and ugh...the heat and humidity slapped me in the face like a warm, wet washcloth. The dampness in the air was so heavy it clung to me. The darkness surrounded me. I looked up and was awestruck by the vast array of stars in the sky. The more stars visible, the more insignificant I feel.

I stared up into the night sky listening to all the sounds of the darkness. Frogs and crickets creating a cacophony of music and yet it held a melody all its own. I let the warm night hold me close for a few moments more then retreated into the cool comfort of the house.

All winter long I wait for the long, hot days of Summer. There's always so much I want to do to enjoy it. Picnics, going to the zoo, the park, travelling and camping (I miss camping a lot.) The past 3 summers have been nothing but work, work, work until exhaustion overtakes us.

Three years ago, we decided to have the family reunion here so a lot of unfinished projects needed 'finishing'. It took the whole summer, right up to the day of the reunion (August 15th) to get them done. Didn't realize how hard I had pushed myself until I ended up in the Emergency room 4 days later... heart attack!

One would think I learned my lesson but no, last year we spent the summer getting the house ready to sell. We keep finding things to fix up or to improve to make it more appealing to prospective buyers but....

...here we are a year later and the house isn't sold yet! We buy another house which needs some sprucing up so this summer is spent going back and forth between houses, doing what needs to be done.

I am tired (I tire so-o-o easily now) and so sore every night. I wake up feeling as if I haven't slept or even rested my weary bones. I keep getting chest pains but don't know if it is muscle spasms or something more serious. Of course, if I could lose about ^% or &) pounds I would feel a helluva lot better. But that's a lost cause!

I watch as my summer drifts away from me without having done anything FUN! or EXCITING!